Friday, December 24, 2004
today.. was hectic. it started out really well. and i've been waiting for this since who-knows-when. till.. it turned out this way. it didnt have to, it shouldnt have. its probably my fault. i have no idea. i cant blame anyone, i dont think anyone should be anyway. things dont always go the way we want em to. its not within our control. i just hope you wont put the blame on em, it isnt their fault entirely. we came together, worked together.. now, we take the blame together. we go through weal and woe together. it was never a one-man show. we aimed, we strived and persevered. we hoped for the best, but things screwed up. people got frustrated, they werent satisfied. its like as if giving our BEST just wasnt enough. they wanted more, they expected standard. we gave our all, we put our mind and soul to it. it was our only goal - achieving what we set out for. along the way the path daunted us, but we held on and stood firm. it was the only way to go, for SUCCESS. but no one told us that it needed more than that, that we were falling behind. sucked into the powerful vortex of "death", the road leading to FAILURE.. dismay.. diappointment ... i feel sorry for us, for me.. we tried so hard but to no avail. it turned out a disaster. the damage is done; the mess is made. its almost impossible to believe those words. they were cold, but they were real. they made us realise our mistakes, our flaws and wrongs. how could it have been possible?! us?! we were the ELITE force, the CHOSEN ones. yet we reflected nothing but fault, carrying it wherever we went. it was despicable, wrong and it put us to SHAME. it killed our reputation, destroyed our honour. sure, "laws are made to be broken".. but we, as the ones who promote the LAW, break them. abuse our authority, power and position. it is something not the least expected from us, yet we do not practise what we preach (pardon the cliche). oh! the day has just been a utter disappointment, i'll have to retreat to a corner and think through today's happenings. everything went too fast, too soon. we could hardly grasp it, then put things straight. NO, it made no room for us to come in, it excluded us from the picture.. and it did every moment of that with relish, selfishly savouring our downfall. what evil and cruelty exists in this cold world! i am utterly shocked! my life is chaos. there's no turning back..
all messed up;
11:03 AM
ok. this is for the benefit of those who actually were that interested in my view of the recent singapore idol. so, this is the follow-up of my previous post on singapore idol.. uh huh, like we all know, taufik won. thats totally like a shocker for me! it came so unexpectedly. poor sly. i thought he would really win. i guess one of the main reasons taufik won was the fact that maia, daphne and olinda fans turned anti-sly. wow.. thats like too much to take all at one go! lol. so.. now that taufik's won.. the world idol thing is cancelled anyway. really stupid. as for sly, be happy for him.. he got that.. some toothpaste ad thing right?! lol. say cheese! :) gotta scooter. later.
all messed up;
10:05 AM
Tuesday, December 21, 2004
ahh, its great to be "back in business". lol. the holidays have proven to be a really appropriate time to just unwind and hang up those school books.. but vacation homework's still on the prowl, ready to strike you the moment you let that hair down. its really annoying, i must say. so far, i've been really busy and hardly have had the time for those mind-boggling question set for me. *sigh* its difficult not to think about them just when the holidays are soon coming to an end, closing another chapter in my life (year 2004) and for me to embark on a fresh new beginning. arrrggghhh! the lit assignment is just killing me. all that crap about some russian.. - whats that word again? oh forget it.. - thing! ugh. ok.. cant talk for much longer now.. life has been a total chaos! just hope with Christmas coming along things will be better. oh well, gotta bounce! till next time..
ooh! i cant wait to check out those Christmas presents.. they are so irresistable under that tree, the excitement is getting to me!!
all messed up;
12:52 PM