Sunday, September 11, 2005
haha (:
my birthday's about to end in a few minutes time...
around forty.
today was great.
it was a CHEESE-Y day (:
imagine this!
cheese for dinner at an italian restaurant,
cheesecake..
and i added extra cheese to my cheese dinner (:
thankfully i didn't say cheese! when i took photos! (:
haha.
oh well, thanks everyone for your birthday wishes (:
fine la piggeh.
for the record, you're FIRST!
*clap clap clap*
haha.
YAY (:
i'm happy.
all messed up;
11:35 PM
ART on my birthday?!
grr.
all messed up;
12:23 AM
Saturday, September 10, 2005
exactly one hour and one minute left.
what do i do -
wait?!
all messed up;
10:59 PM
today's outreach was good.
i'm glad arica came along.
guess it's good for her.
all i can say is that 'i will pray for her'.
but many a times this sentence just becomes something we say and not do.
the message the other sunday on this really impacted me.
i've been thinking -
am i serious about my faith?
it's a difficult question to answer.
especially with so many complications going on around me.
it's difficult to find a meaning in life.
for today's outreach, i think the person that best portrays me is grace.
what do i really want in life?
why the same old routine everyday?
after a while, life just gets boring and i'm drifiting around aimlessly like a lost soul.
i used to think my life had so much meaning.
but i guess not anymore.
there must be more to it.
so i guess the answer is really Jesus.
what then, stopped me from raising my hand? i knew it in the back of my mind.
i wanted to.
but i didn't.
and i regret.
maybe i'm just not ready.
to put myself into the shoes of jeremy:
so what if i've built up on so much in life?
so what if i'm a prefect, a monitress or a leader?
so what if i have a perfect life?
does that mean anything?
my life doesn't depend on all that.
life is so fragile;
so hollow;
so unpredictable.
just like those styrofoam cups,
falling and toppling with just a mere push.
why?
i wish God would just speak to me.
i want to have that personal relationship we speak so much of.
somehow i just don't feel it.
i feel fake. why do i go to Church when i'm not even sure about my faith?
and who am i to judge others? - athalie you know what i mean.
sigh,
it's all too much to take in for one day.
i hope it's not too late-
God,
i raise my hand NOW.
amen.
all messed up;
10:33 PM
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
you know what, you're right -
it's a choice.
so i'm gonna make the right choice today.
i'm gonna smile my biggest smile (:
all messed up;
8:59 PM
sorry y'all.
my tagboard's down ):
all messed up;
7:07 PM
Saturday, September 03, 2005
rahh.
is it even worth holding on?
this is getting nowhere.
drifting around aimlessly.
it's about time i realised -
the time is near.
all messed up;
7:55 PM
Friday, September 02, 2005
pissifying.
screw you all
all you freaks
so pissed i was almost driven to tears.
i'm glad y'all were shocked.
don't you dare test me.
cause you're going down.
and what the shit.
it was you!
and you.
and you.
and you.
and you.
and you.
and you.
and you.
and all the other yous.
so much for the trust.
and best friends? - yeah right. shit you.
don't believe the truth:
TRUST NO ONE
all messed up;
6:42 PM
Thursday, September 01, 2005
replies.
dajie: you take care too (:
felicia: haha. ok, will link you when i next have the time! (:
athalie: hah. why you change blog address? oh well ok. will change together with feli's (:
zl: hah. what survey? i thought it was over. haha (: whatever you think is nice will be good (:
DPH: hehe. no need to be so paiseh. just change can already. no big deal! (:
GOODGUY: hey you! (: there hasn't been much activity going on, eh? shall kill someone soon (:
all messed up;
9:19 PM