the mask. i can feel it. its back again. whyy do i lie about how i feel inside? today was supposed to be is a happy day. but i'm not happy. its this stupid thing's that's haunting me. i can't stand it. i can't help it. i just fake it.
freak. can things get any better?? i'd like to think yes. but no. it isn't gonna happen this way. i'm just gonna fade away..
this isn't fair. is it a wonder why i hate school? its the only thing that gives me pressure. i was so happy ytd. today things are different. whyy? so much for that long-awaited "freedom". it was all a lie. anti-climax. freak.
sorry da jie. sorry zhen luan. you thought i could. but i can't, and i couldn't. was it within my control? i have no idea. all i know is that i have let you down. thanks for all your encouragements. but forgive me.
i can't sleep; i can't dream tonight. no one knows the tears i cry.
all messed up;
3:39 PM
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