my jigsaw puzzle life.

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

sorreh dajie. sorreh once again. to think you would be so nice. to stoop down just to talk to me! i am touched (: thankies. but i'm sorreh )':

i realleh tried. i tried to hold back those tears. but they just kept flowing. it was impossible to stop. i couldn't. i didn't have the willpower. sorreh. i was weak. my mental stamina. it was a stupid scene. sorreh. so sorreh, you had to get to know me.

piggeh. i have let you down too. sorreh. sorreh for letting you see me cry. sorreh for even telling you about my problems. sorreh for getting you involved. sorreh. i am ~~stupid~~. but don't worry for me. soon you won't have to. retard 2 and i. we have the agreement. yes, we do.

retard 2. i can't wait to see you again. i just can't wait. i'm anxiously anticipating the moment we are flying. then everything will just flash past me. in my memory. everything will be gone. our problems will disappear. but then. what will be of the people we leave behind? yuck- sorreh everyone. forgive me us.

tmr. x cty. i don't want to die. i'm too young. yuck- i don't wanna run past familiar faces with that look on my face. no, i don't. it will be stupid, malu-ating. yuck- i can't run. but i can't let my class down. i can't leave them in the lurch. they are partially depending on me. but more so cel. that comforts me. yes, it does. thankies cel. sorreh you have to bear more responsibilty. and sorreh i'm burdensome. bahh-

thanks mr suresh. you are nice, right vicki? (: thanks. now we don't have to make those posters anymore. YAY. something off my brain. yuck-

sorreh everyone. i'm just saddistic. i am stupid and you don't want to listen. so why are you even bothering to read through till the end? stop here. just do. i'm just... SORRY EVERYONE. you had to know i existed. you had to see my fake smiles. you had to listen to my crap. you had to take it all in. and in the end, i gain nothing. you gain nothing. so just let me off. just don't make me worry for you, because you are worrying for me. yuck- stupid boring cycle that just keep going on and on.

there is no way out of this;
wanna show me, dajie?

all messed up;
5:41 PM